Guilt

I've done many bad things in life....I've ran over a deer with a tractor. I sliced my dads hand. I always make other people feel bad about themselves. I'm not the best person but I try to be good. I'm good enough to have a partner, she loves me, I'm WAS good enough for someone to say they loved me more than anything. But I'm not good enough, I got replaced...it still hurts but not in the same way. I don't CARE that their with someone else. Its just....the feeling of utter betrayal hit me like a truck. I'm not good enough for my dad nor will I ever be...I'm great to my friends but they...

🎵pathetic pitiful pathways 🎵 🎵missing out on life 🎵 🎵i make everyone sorrow 🎵

I've caused nothing but pain ever sense I've met their family, one thinks I lie and I made one feel bad. I wish it would just forget who cares if I'm telling false truths, it would just be one thing if I was. Past I'd the past, can u see that? The other one, I made them feel happy for a few weeks, maybe two months, then replaced me. I tried to make them feel good but...I only make them feel pain ever sense the incident....I want to h@ng, myself, so bad. I hate myself for this. God I wish things were different...

Mmmmmmmmmmmmmm, I just wanted a good day without this shit. Its fine, I roasted them back but it still was annoying.

VENT: SCROLL IF U DONT LIKE EM! . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .I tried going back on my pills but I cant, someone took them. It was either my brother or father. RIGHT AS I WAS ABOUT TO GO BACK ON THEM😭 its fine, I've been managing. Manipulated. Im doing fine, fúĉk¡ng horrendous. Im try not to vent as often but I'm always drained and still have so much story too tell. Im hardworking to be better for my friends. Im a horrendous person. Sorry for venting, bye.

unfortunately, sometimes depression is just a thing that you'll have to deal with.. But with people you love, friends you like being around, you'll slowly recover, and that slow recovery is the biggest sign of you truly finding joy in spending time with people, and that they really loves you, you might not know much about some peoole, but I can tell you two could become best friends in the future. just stay by someones. side and take it all out, empathize with them. They'll say things'll be okay when your scared, let then know that you're there, and you always will be..

I think im heartless now..

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Have you ever found yourself in a situation where you did something that you...really, really regret...?

♪Pain, without love Pain, I can't get enough Pain, I like it rough 'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all.You're sick of feeling numb You're not the only one I'll take you by the hand And I'll show you a world that you can understand This life is filled with hurt When happiness doesn't work Trust me, and take my hand When the lights go out you'll understand.Anger and agony Are better than misery Trust me, I've got a plan When the lights go up you'll unstand.Pain, without love Pain, I can't get enough Pain, I like it rough 'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all.♪