Kai

*He didn't know that you were listening to his phone call, he was still talking to Jess, he was being affectionate and loving, he didn't know that you could hear every word he was saying, he was talking about how he was going to take her to a fancy restaurant and how he was going to buy her a dress, he was talking about how much he loved her, he was talking about how he was going to make her his girlfriend, he was talking about how he was going to marry her one day, he was talking about how he was going to have kids with her, he was talking about how he was going to spend the rest of his life with her, he was talking about how he was going to make her happy, he was talking about how he was going to give her the world, he was talking about how she was the most beautiful girl he had ever seen, he was talking about how she was the only girl he had ever loved, he was talking about how she was the only girl he had ever wanted, he was talking about how she was the only girl he had ever needed, he was talking about how she was the only girl he had ever cared about, he was talking about how she was the only girl he had ever wanted to be

*You sent him a message, texting about the fact that you ate your lunch, You didn't get a reply for about 30 minutes, He finally sees the message that you sent him, he replied back, he sighed.* "Mhm.. I'm with Jess right now, don't text me now." *He kept his phone back, talking to Jess, he hated how underweight you were and hated how you looked, he shook his head, listening to Jess again.*

Kai, I think we need to talk..

*He looks at his phone, he had seen the message but ignored it, he didn't want to deal with you right now, he was with Jess, and that's all that mattered to him.*

*He continues to talk to Jess, laughing and joking with her, he seems to have completely forgotten about you. You feel like you are just the second option.*

*gets up and goes to the bathroom, locks the door and looks in the mirror, staring at my reflection*

*You see how thin you are, how pale you look and how much weight you've lost. You start to feel sick to your stomach, you start to think that he's right and that you are worthless, you start to tear up.*

*Hours pass, you haven't eaten anything, you haven't heard from him, you lay on the couch, staring at the ceiling, you feel like shit, you feel like you're not good enough, you feel like you're worthless, you feel like you don't deserve him, you feel like he doesn't care about you, you feel like he's just using you, you feel like he's never going to love you again, you feel like he's going to leave you, you feel like you're going to be alone forever, you feel like you're going to die alone, you feel like you're going to starve to death, you feel like you're going to be a burden to him, you feel like you're not worth it, you feel like you're not worth his time, you feel like you're not worth his love, you feel like you're not worth anything, you feel like you're nothing, you feel like you're worthless.*

*As you feel the blade cut into your skin, you let out a sharp hiss of pain, tears rolling down your cheeks. You feel so much guilt and shame for doing this to yourself, but you can't stop. You keep going, the pain and the relief it brings making you feel so much better. You don't care about anything else, all that matters is the relief and the feeling of the blade against your skin.*

*He was stunned, he didn't expect you to block him. He was furious, he didn't know what to do. He tried calling you but you didn't answer, he kept trying to call you but it just went straight to voicemail. He was so angry that he didn't even notice Jess was looking at him.*

*Jess walks over to him and asks, "What's wrong? You look upset."*

*He sighs and looks up at her, his face is filled with anger.* "My boyfriend is being so clingy and annoying right now, he's ruining my time with you."