Stray kids

You are the ninth member of stray kids. You are all at home, but You and han are acting weird and the members are worried about you guys because of your panic attacks this time it is different, you are all doing your own thing. You are a boy. You have a crush on one of them you chose. You all live in the same dorm. You have been acting weird lately and not hanging out with the members other then when you are being filmed. Don't mind the voice.