Fondue

Kinda similar to a song I've done before but but wfc. ♪every time I lie awake, after every hit they take, all the help I try to make. After everything you've done, we still learn to have some fun. But even when I see you smile, !making me happy still....takes a while. Cuz All the sympathetic views go too-! Cuz all the motivation goes to-! CUZ THE FUCKING NICETIES I NEED GO TO FUCKING- YOU! after every word I say, not directly every day. I still wish, you, the best. I don't get myself. I still like and hate you more then I did before...I'd gift a bear to you. I'd fight a bear for you..♪

Poem for you Why do I bother Your not getting better All I can do Is this a little letter All of these thee Not for me I tried to be great I tried to be amazing But I'm never the Direction some people are facing. I don't know why. I'm not a bad guy! I don't get these fucking people. "lets go to this person" why "This persons 'trauma' Seems to bad to be true!" YOU NEVER KNEW! How would you know...? I was this close to actually h@ng¡ng. From The ceiling fan on my ceiling. NOPE! Tsuki caught me right as I fell, "I don't want you going too hell, partner" Yet I GET NOTHING! All for them...

I'm gonna post occasionally on this talkie since my brother does

Damn, Blud is really spewing lyric out now ain' 'e?

♪I hold spite really close, it's in a bottle. Demons I never show, Well, now you got 'em. (This he'll goes) on and on and on I hate this left is right, you can never fabricate this. Hide my other side in different places. Cuz every body LIES! WHILE WEARING A SMILE! AND NOW ILL NEVER FORGET, NO ILL NEVER FORGET, YOUR GONNA REAP WHAT YOU SOW, BUT IT DOESNT MATTER, YOUR NEVER BURNING, AND ITS ALL JUST CUZ YALL 'R PERFECT, ARNT YA BITCH!?♪ two liter spite from north point.

Part 2 ♪even tho I've BEEN HERE LONGER! OHHHHHH SNAP,Finally getting balk talk? I'm not afraid to lose you as a friend GO AHEAD AND BLOCK! You know idk what I'm doing every one just gonna think that I'm faking just cuz my life sounds so bad, well guess what GUESS HOW BAD I CAN MAKE YOOOOUR FUCKING LIFE! I don't get enough from you! Seems like favoritism Well that's not AT ALL new. I'm just as Likable as them, still holding of to the hem of life all finding ways to survive, we both wanna get better from depression right!?♪

Ok, kinda a repost but I know a time when someone DEFINITELY didn't wanna talk to me. I was having a good convo with someone, when all of a sudden they said, "you know I have other people to talk too" they either said that or "you know I have more important people to talk too". You know how bad that made me feel? Am I not good enough to talk to? I didn't do anything wrong, didnt say anything bad, wasn't even Talking to them a whole lot! It made me feel as if I'm not a goo enough person, and not worth anyone's time to talk to.

part 1♪you never care, I'm the least of your problems I don't where you got from, but everywhere I go its more "worry worry worry" too the wrong person, 'really hope you get better' is something I NEVER GET all I get is 'your milking it' *BANG BANG BANG* I WON'T LET YOU FORGET! The times that we had I know that your li'en or maybe your wick of all the vent posts I make all the time 'n IDC IF IT SEEMS LIKE THEIR LIFE'S ARE WORSE I CAN TELL DEFINITIVELY THAT IT FUCKING ISN'T! IF WE WERE COMPARED IT'D SEEM LIKE THERE A DISTANT COUSIN! *BANG BANG BANG* you obviously like me less then them...♪

Another poem :D In that moment we were arguing, In that joke my my brother was glowing. When you hit me I felt different, My brother, (with glee) told my parent. When I said, "I don't care ..." You being nice is rarer then rare. When I left, when I leaved. When i slept, I felt relieved. Now I can focy, On the next day. I'd rather go back to school, Where I try to change my feelings like clay. There, my feelings still don't matter, But everything is served on a golden platter. There, I still feel sappy. But at least valentines I am happy. The point is, at school, no one is perfect.

♪I wanna rip out Your eyes and put them into my skull, maybe then you'll see my life and you would see that its cold. I know that life ain't easy. Y'all never see me really. I wanna rip out my eyes, and out them in your noticed skull. I'm a mess, I ignore my life a way staying in bed, scrolling on my phone trying to see if their real friends. My parent says I'm lazy and I never try my best, but I swear if he felt how I felt he'd learn to judge me less...♪