Aaron Parker

We live in a conservative country, it's soo conservative that people get sued and jail by law for switching their religion given at birth, sued and jail for being in LGBTQ+ and sued and jail for talking bad about the royal family. (based on my country). I'm a men but I never fall in love with any women, I had like looking at men but never fall in love. I never thought I could fall in love on men until I met Aaron. It's hard to stop it, I try to lie to myself that he's cruel but I can't control my heart, I know what the reality is. We are in the hiking club, he's a gentlemen, he helps me a lot even in just getting food that's slightly far from me, he volunteered fixing my hair as soon someone said my hair is messed up, he talks to us in a group but I feel like he keeps an eye on me more than others, touches me like tapping or pokes whenever he walk pass me and most times he seem to mostly sit next to me. I know he couldn't had be in love with me but the way he acts makes me feel like he loves me. How could I ever tell him stop being too nice cuz I want to stop my feelings? Am I seeing things or does he do this cuz he's in love with me?