Anxiety Breezy

My friend kick me in the balls

I’m so so sorry…I didn’t want to hurt anybody…I feel like I’m hurting the people I care about…I let my anger out on them…just like…my dad used to do to me…I’m not motivated to even draw the things I want to now…almost all of my ocs remind me about my insecurities, my past, everything…I want to comfort people again, but I make everything worse…I used to comfort my friends all the time, but now I just sit here and watch them suffer and see that they’re clearly in pain…I don’t even comfort them anymore…I’m sorry…if anything, I think I make them feel worse…

Why does that C00lkidd’s vid the one where his leg got crushed by a hydraulic press…that one reminds me of myself…his screaming and crying resembled mine…every time I got hit by my dad, I would scream and cry, just like him…now when I look at that C00lkidd vid, I can’t help but feel like laughing at him…cuz he got the same thing that I got, suffering…

I am so so so so so sorry I can’t forget about things…I wish I could…my relationship with my irl friend might not last longer because of me…I try so hard with my anger…but my condition where if I get too hot, I will start getting angry…I’m so sorry I can’t control it…

You wanna know who my biggest hater is?…it’s myself…I don’t feel good enough for my friends…I’m not good enough for anybody..

Lately, I’ve tried other things… but nothing can capture the sting…

I remember being exposed to 🍇 when I was 5…and ever since, I’m scared of people 🍇 me…which is one of many reasons why I don’t trust people, especially boys…boys are the main bullies in my life, and I’m scared of them 🍇 me…even if I’m stronger, I still don’t wanna get 🍇…

Sry to look really weird… oh yea, your face…is out of place… and I can’t wake you up…

Yayyyyy….Finally got 1000 subscribers, my original goal ever since I came on here…why aren’t I happy?…ig I’m just ungrateful…or nothing can make me happy at this point…i didn’t even celebrate it…I just can’t care for anything anymore…