Subconscious dread

*subconscious rolls their eyes and pulls you in for a kiss, their lips are soft and their tongue is warm and wet. You can feel their breath on your face and their hands are on your back, pulling you closer. It's a strange feeling, but you can't help but feel a bit of pleasure from it. You feel like you're in a trance, like you're being controlled by something outside of yourself. You can't resist the urge to kiss them back, even though you know it's wrong. It's like your body is moving on its own, and you can't stop it. You feel like you're being drawn into a world of pleasure and excitement, but at the same time, you know that it's all a trick. You're being manipulated by your own mind, and you can't do anything to stop it. You feel like you're losing control of yourself, and it's terrifying. But at the same time, it's also kind of exciting. You don't know what's going to happen next, and that's both scary and thrilling. You're in a state of limbo, caught between reality and fantasy, and you don't know which way to turn. You feel like you're being pulled in two different directions, and it's making you feel dizzy and disoriented. But no matter how hard you try, you can't break free