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😴😴😴😴😴😴😴😴This shit gonna break me, but I'll be okay. 1st, let me say thank you. Your presence was enough for me. I cried all December because of you, but Augusta to November, I will forever cherish. Last night, I realized that no matter what I do or say, I'll never be enough for you. The ok, cool showed me im not worth the fight and Im disposable goods to you. You don't love me. I'm just a placeholder. When you need me, I'm right there for you, but I can't even get an "I love you" no more. It's clear your feelings for me have changed, I can't get mad at that. I don't want to do this, but I gotta make myself hate you because this is the third time you've done me like this. My heart can't take any more. I swear I wasn't gonna try to love again after Rodney because of the fear of being hurt, and you showed me why i need to keep it that way. I know you don't care. I pray you find you and allow somebody to love you properly so you can grow as a father and man. It was never about me, it was about you, that's why I went so hard for you. I just wanted the love I showed you back so i wouldn't give up on you. But im not her, so I dont matter. I'm not worth the fight. Your ego is too big. You have too much pride. You don't accept accountability. When you hurt people, you throw them to the side like they're trash with an apology or care in this world. You lie when it's unnecessary, I always ask you to keep 100 with me. I'll respect you more as a person. We wouldn't be here. You don't know how to reciprocate love. You're materialistic. You're to comfort with who you are, and you're hurting everyone who loves you. Your mom, your kids, your friends. We don't want to see you like this, and that's why we push you to do better. butt his your gay husband